Down in the spring
with waters enticing
I went for a hop
until I decided to stop
Then I reached for my footwear
untied its laces and with my foot bare
I dip it into the water
I never felt any better
Time to test the water
that’s what matter
So with all my might, let’s see
Que cera, cera
Whatever will be, will be
Biglaan
di ko inaasahan
agad-agad na lang
diwa ko’y nahibang
Biglaan
puso’y nahiwagaan
utak ay di na maituwid
kaluluwa’y tila tumagilid
Biglaan
akalain mo ba naman
nakakapanibago, nakakakilig
ang biglaang pagdapo ng pag-ibig
Akala ko matapang ako
noong nagpalit ako ng kurso
noong iniwan ko ang permanenteng trabaho
noong tumaya ako sa mga di sigurado
Akala ko matapang ako
handang makipagpalitan ng argumento
handang ibulalas ang opinyon ko
handang ihayag ang aking punto por punto
Akala ko matapang ako
ngunit may pagkakataong ganito
na sa iyo’y magpapabago
at maduduwag ang matapang na puso
Akala ko matapang ako
ngunit hindi sa mga sandaling ito
di ko kayang tumbasan ang tapang mo
di ko alam kung bakit tapang ko’y naglaho
These past three days,
the hopeless in me
started to believe
in something worth believing
These past three days,
the weak heart in me
stated to throb
in ways I never thought it’ll be
These past three days,
the oppressed feeling in me
started to be empowered
in means i never saw coming
But all things that started quickly
will eventually end up abruptly
I am just glad, at least I tried
These past three days
Here are my hands,
to hold yours
if you feel like
walking around the park at midnight.
Here are my shoulders,
that you could lean on
when you feel like
hiding your emotions from the world.
Here are my arms,
ready to hug you
in a manner that it might lessen
the troubles stuck within you.
Here are my ears
that will never get tired,
open for long conversations
to listen to your frustrations.
and
Here, take my heart,
go and get pieces for your puzzles,
your shattered pieces
and make yours whole again.
Even if it means, I’ll be the broken one,
As long as you are whole, I will feel complete.
Look at me and
envelope me
on feelings I cannot forget
Ease me
on regrets with
living a life that’s uncertain
Offer me
love that transcends
every boundaries in our universe
Get this.
Even if you do your best,
and make your intentions clear,
someone (somewhere, somehow) will not like you.
You just have to go on.
Breathe, inhale oxygen,
exhale the bad vibrations
That’s life, just live it.
Perhaps, people are only mad
maybe because they are disappointed,
they are probably broken inside
that they let out their frustrations in you.
Again, not everybody will like you
and that is Okay, it is just fine
Count the people who belongs in your tribe
Not those people who leaves scars in your heart
Still, be good even if others are not good to you
For the Creator sees this and gives justice
He gives what is due, for He is righteous
Be good and do not let your heart be broken.
Chin up.
Do not look down and
wear that crown with valor.
Remember, you are not everybody’s cup of tea
and
that
is
Fine.
They will come your way,
with that discerning smile,
with that dubious look
and that smirk on their faces.
They will wait for your suffering
with a place on the frontseat,
with popcorn on their hands
and that excitement in their eyes.
They will expect for your downfall
with a longing on their soul,
with a feeling of a thrill in their bones
and that unfathomable sensation of a demon.
They will always be there,
buried in your deepest thoughts,
lurking in the deepest corners,
finding a home inside your mind.
Take them away from me,
throw it in the deepest sea,
release me from these beasts
oh, Dearest, oh please!
I need somebody
to accept me
in my entirety
and with all my flaws
I need somebody
to see beyond
my mood swings
and childish ways
I need somebody
to know me
without referring it
to other’s opinion
I need somebody
to stay with me
at my lowest points
or when i hit rock bottom
and
I need somebody
to love me
even if there seems
no more reason to love me
for I need somebody
to understand the complexity of me,
the questions and puzzles of me,
somebody that i’ve been longing to see
I am starting to let go of things I cannot change. Slowly but surely, surviving one day at a time.
the loveless poetess 